Wednesday, January 1, 2014

Resolved


Today's muse: Three Word Wednesday

Today's prompts are: gorgeous, jittery, outrageous

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Resolved

It’s a new year and I have no reason to believe that anything will change from the last one. In fact, I expect it to be worse. Not because you will share it with me, but because I will let you.

There was a time you thought I was gorgeous, when a single touch from you made me jittery with need. Now, I sleep alone—as do you—and I comfort myself with outrageous fantasies of another man’s hands and mouth worshipping me.

I believe that we create our own destiny, and if I want to leave, I know I can. I’ve done it before and I can do it again. I would survive, I would move on.

The thing of it is, the first divorce almost killed me—or rather, my thoughts did. The despair I felt dragged me into a dark cave that took years to crawl from. My thoughts are not exactly warm and fuzzy these days, but I know one thing: it would piss you off more if I lived, than not.

And that’s what keeps me going.

5 comments:

Sheilagh Lee said...

a very well written short story

oldegg said...

Great story but the character is still not in control of her life. She should make her move and be herself again. How valuable is freedom?

Alice Audrey said...

That's a sad state of affairs.

Jae Rose said...

As long as there's a reason..that's good enough..happy new year to you..

rallentanda said...

I find it refreshing that you are unafraid to express real relationship feelings...most people
are either too afraid or are in denial . Good for you!